I need prayer please & also open to advice. I’ll try to keep this short.. I come from a family of addicts (drugs &/or alcohol) I currently have 2 brothers in prison and 1 who no one knows where he is. Thankfully I was saved by grace and God restored me to a sober life, loving and serving Him, my husband and 4 beautiful sons. My Mum is in another state here in Australia, my Dad lives close to me. My Dad 2 nights ago was given a most likely cancer diagnosis, my Dad is not healthy he’s been using drugs all his life and suffers with severe Epilepsy. Lung Cancer will kill him. Last year I had to help my Dad get a family violence restraining order on one of my brothers who was his full time carer. My Dad now lives alone and only has 2 days a week of 2 hr support services. I try to visit my Dad weekly to help with whatever he needs. Now that it looks like my Dad could be dying I have been under attack by one of my brother’s (one in prison not the ex carer brother) girlfriend. She thinks I’ve known about this, is saying horrible things behind my back, was sending a bombardment of nasty accusing, hateful messages to me. I had to block her number in the end as I was broken. I couldn’t sleep last night with how ugly I know this time is going to get. She thinks I’m hiding things and to make matters more fueled with paranoia, my Dad asked me months ago to help him set up a funeral plan. This was prior to any Cancer knowledge as far as I’m aware. As he doesn’t want us kids paying for it. I searched high and low, and everything was beyond what he could afford so he agreed to just debit $10 a fortnight into my youngest sons account (that does not have card access nor does my 9yo son use it as he’s a little spender!) I have him reference funeral. So far he’s saved a whopping $20. I thought at the time we recently set it up he still had 10 or more years in him. We are the only ones not using drugs or alcohol, the only Christians, and the only ones working to help Dad financially when it comes to the funeral but at the same time don’t have thousands of spare dollars floating around. I’d originally talked to Dad prior to the cancer prognosis about how he’d feel about our Pastor doing his funeral and he was happy for this as it brings costs down a lot for him and he didn’t want us kids to pay. The girlfriend isn’t going to agree to this. I would love to speak direct to my brother but his girlfriend controls any communication and I can just not deal with her right now, nothing I say or do is good enough and as polite but also assertive I’ve tried to be she just sends horrible nasty responses. All I want to do is honor my Dad and love and look after him the best I can through this. My Dad doesn’t have a Will which I really considered last night however today I don’t think I can deal with the backlash from the girlfriend. I think I’ve decided to just let them organise everything and just walk away from it all. Try to love my Dad if I’m allowed. There is no assets involved there will only be countless bills and debts to pay. All this is already jumping too far ahead as he’s still here & is still going for further tests be the doctor does feel confident it’s lung cancer. This is the result already after 1 day of people hearing the news. My head hurts and my hearts heavy. When I try to pray it’s like there’s a block and I go round in circles. Prayers so very appreciated ♥️

Posted by Deleted (c6c98233) at 2021-04-29 04:04:40 UTC